For Virginia Chavez by Lorna Dee Cervantes | Poems Rethabile Likes
For Virginia Chavez
by Lorna Dee Cervantes
It was never in the planning,
in the life we thought
we'd live together, two fast
women living cheek to cheek,
still tasting the dog's
breath of boys in our testy
new awakening.
We were never the way
they had it planned.
Their wordless tongues we stole
and tasted the power
that comes of that.
We were never what they wanted
but we were bold. We could take
something of life and not
give it back. We could utter
the rules, mark the lines
and cross them ourselves—we two
women using our fists, we thought,
our wits, our tunnels. They were such
dumb hunks of warm fish
swimming inside us,
but this was love,
we knew, love, and that was all
we were ever offered.
You were always alone
so another lonely life
wouldn't matter.
In the still house
your mother left you,
when the men were gone
and the television droned
into test patterns, with our cups
of your mother's whiskey
balanced between the brown thighs
creeping out of our shorts, I read
you the poems of Lord Byron, Donne,
the Brownings: all about love,
explaining the words
before realizing that you knew
all that the kicks in your belly
had to teach you. You were proud
of the woman blooming out of your
fourteen lonely years, but you cried
when you read that poem I wrote you,
something about our "waning moons"
and the child in me
I let die that summer.
In the years that separate,
in the tongues that divide
and conquer, in the love
that was a language
in itself, you never spoke,
never regret. Even
that last morning
I saw you with blood
in your eyes, blood
on your mouth, the blood
pushing out of you
in purple blossoms.
He did this.
When I woke, the kids
were gone. They told me
I'd never get them back.
With our arms holding
each other's waists, we walked
the waking streets
back to your empty flat,
ignoring the horns and catcalls
behind us, ignoring what
the years had brought between us:
my diploma and the bare bulb
that always lit your bookless room.
in the life we thought
we'd live together, two fast
women living cheek to cheek,
still tasting the dog's
breath of boys in our testy
new awakening.
We were never the way
they had it planned.
Their wordless tongues we stole
and tasted the power
that comes of that.
We were never what they wanted
but we were bold. We could take
something of life and not
give it back. We could utter
the rules, mark the lines
and cross them ourselves—we two
women using our fists, we thought,
our wits, our tunnels. They were such
dumb hunks of warm fish
swimming inside us,
but this was love,
we knew, love, and that was all
we were ever offered.
You were always alone
so another lonely life
wouldn't matter.
In the still house
your mother left you,
when the men were gone
and the television droned
into test patterns, with our cups
of your mother's whiskey
balanced between the brown thighs
creeping out of our shorts, I read
you the poems of Lord Byron, Donne,
the Brownings: all about love,
explaining the words
before realizing that you knew
all that the kicks in your belly
had to teach you. You were proud
of the woman blooming out of your
fourteen lonely years, but you cried
when you read that poem I wrote you,
something about our "waning moons"
and the child in me
I let die that summer.
In the years that separate,
in the tongues that divide
and conquer, in the love
that was a language
in itself, you never spoke,
never regret. Even
that last morning
I saw you with blood
in your eyes, blood
on your mouth, the blood
pushing out of you
in purple blossoms.
He did this.
When I woke, the kids
were gone. They told me
I'd never get them back.
With our arms holding
each other's waists, we walked
the waking streets
back to your empty flat,
ignoring the horns and catcalls
behind us, ignoring what
the years had brought between us:
my diploma and the bare bulb
that always lit your bookless room.
Comments
The poet writes himself into history. Cognisance must be taken of that fact. It is the events, the people, the self-portrait of the poet, the poet holding a mirror to their innermost feelings, thoughts, lived experience, that reflection is not only of the poet, the individual’s mirror image, it is also a justification of the alienation, the social isolation, the rejection, the loneliness the poet faces in reflective mode.
The Bulgarian poetess, Petya Dubarova believed that people were “pure and irreplaceable.” And so it is with poets and poems and poetry. The verses are pure, and purity is powerful, it has a subtle energy, and innocence and purity can never be replaced.
It is poetry that shelters us, and it is poets that shelter us from the cruelties of the world, it is poets that shelter us sometimes from our own mental torment and personal anguish. It is poets that are our spiritual mentors, sent from the divine, to fix the illnesses of the soul. The poem is the prescription, the medicine, “the pill for the ill”.
“There is such shelter in each other.”
Nick Laird
“A poem has secrets that the poet knows nothing of.”
Stanley Kunitz
Stanley Kunitz
This is so true!